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Saturday, April 3, 2010

Dulu Gak Selalu Berarti Kini (PAST WILL NEVER MEANS THE PRESENT)


Dulu,...
Ku menangis dan dunia tertawa
Ku lemah dan engkau melindungiku
Kulucu dalam dekapanmu,
Namun, tak satupun kusadari semua itu....
Hanyalah cerita dongeng sebelum tidur


Long time ago...
I cried when the world laughed
I was weak and you protected me
I was adorable in your embrace
But, i never realized it all....
It's like another bed time story for me


Dulu,...
Yang kutahu hanya ketidakadilan
Kupahami makna 'tersisihkan'
Kukenal arti goresan luka di tubuh mungilku
Saat yang lain menari dalam kegembiraan,
Ku bingung dalam ketidakpastianku


Long time ago,....
All i knew was injustice
I was fulled with the word "left behind"
I acknowledged the scars on my tiny helpless body
When others joyfully danced,
I was trapped in uncertainty


Dulu,...
Kusesali hadirku di dunia
Tawa hanyalah selimut dari bekunya airmata
Sbab yang kutahu dari matamu
Hanyalah kebencian dan kemarahan
Tanpa pernah kutahu alasannya mengapa


Long time ago....
I regretted my presence in this world
Laughter was only the blanket to cover the frozen tears
For all i knew from your eyes
Were only anger & hatred
And i never know the reason why


Dulu,...
Kupunya seribu alasan tuk membencimu
Kupunya berjuta cara tuk tinggalkanmu
Oleh karena benih amarah dalam diriku
Yang slalu kau pupuk dengan suburnya
Oleh setiap makian & cemohanmu


Long time ago,....
I had thousands of reason to hate you
I had millions of ways to leave you
For the seed of bitterness were well-grown within me
Which you always fertilized it day by day
with all your harsh words


Namun, kini...
Kumenangis & meraung dalam nyanyian bumi
Saat kudapati ketidakberdayanmu hadapi waktu
Kelemahanmu meluluhkan benteng amarahku
Kepasrahanmu melayukan kembang dendamku
Yang kutahu sekarang hanya satu: KASIH.


But now,...
I cry & mourn with the earth song
As i gaze in your helplessness facing time
Your weakness is melting my fortress of anger
Your defenselessness is fading away my blossom grudge
All i know now is only one: LOVE


Hidup memang adalah sebuah misteri,
Tapi hati manusia jauh lebih misterius...
Dunia memaksaku tuk bekukan nurani
Mata ganti mata & gigi ganti gigi,
Namun takkan kubiarkan penderitaan membunuh nuraniku
Walau aku punya seribu alasan tuk memalingkan wajah
Tapi, justru melalui semua rasa sakit ini,
Aku akhirnya mengerti apa sebenarnya makna dari: "mengasihi"


Life is mystery indeed
But human heart is more mysterious of all...
World had been forcing me to freeze my conscience
An eye for an eye & a tooth for a tooth
But I won't let this misery to kill the love within me
Though i have many reasons to turn around & walk away,
It is only through these pains & hurts
I finally come to know what it means to "LOVE"

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